Friday, August 29, 2008

I'm Still Here!!!!

I know its been a long time since I've blogged. My internet at home is not working for some reason and I cannot figure it out. The kids laptops worked but the regular computer will not work. I know I know I'm working on getting it fixed. Computers are very frustrating to me since I don't know much about them. Any ideas, I'm listening (as Frasier would say).

Both of my kids are now in Fayetteville going to college. Seriously, this has to be on my top 5 list of "hardest things I've had to do" list. I've cried a river of tears! I mean my identity for the last 21 years has been that of Moma! I'm thinking I need to write a book about this so that other people can be prepared for whats coming when their child goes to college or moves out or whatever causes you to have empty nest symdrome! Granted I am one of those moms that loves having her kids around and loves teenagers and have been blessed to have great relationships with my kids.

Now I'm faced with the question "What am I going to do with my life now?" Pretty scarey question I must say. Of course I'm still their Ma aka Moma aka Beth but I've got a lot of time on my hands these days. On one hand its quite depressing wandering what I'm going to do and on the other hand its quite exciting wandering what God is going to do with this ol girl now.

Just from reading this entry I can see three things I can and want and need to do. Scrapbook and I have two books I want to about kids growing up and one about being a birthmom. Actually, three books. I've always wanted to write a book about my life, either in real form or as a novel. Something to ponder.

Its great being back and I'll try not to be to depressing in my entries! Thanks Betty for giving me a blog award, I'm so excited!