It was absolutely beautiful out this morning. I decided to go for a walk. When I went outside I was greeted not only by my cat Sophie but by 3 cows standing in the field. They live behind me but they think the grass is greener over here and so every day they bop right on over. They have gotten so comfortable that today one of them was laying down in my field. Then, they see me and get this look on their face of pure fear, they freeze and watch me to see what I will do. Usually, I just look at them and go on but every once in a while my devilish side comes out and I start talking to them. OMG, they take off like a scared cat. Cracks me up, I always tell them they need to go home. Can't you just see the neighbors watching me talk to the cows and wondering why I'm not locked up somewhere.
Ok, so back to the walk. The temperature was perfect, the sky absolutely beautiful blue and the trees starting to turn. I love this time of year. Our neighbors have a lab that is just precious but they have an invisible fence so she cannot get out of their property. I would say yard but they have like 20 acres of land, a little big for a yard! She runs up to where I'm walking and we have a nice little conversation as she walks along beside me, me on the road and her in her domain. It was really kind of nice to have someone to talk too. Sad, I know, I like to talk to the animals.
I'm going thru some pretty tough stuff right now in my life and so as I was walking, I was just talking to the Lord and asking Him what do You want me to do, where do you want me, I just don't understand. All I know is that I am in the desert and please don't leave me here for 40 years, I'll be 87!!! Seriously! Then this still voice came in my head "just seek me and you will find me". I haven't heard that voice in a long time. It has continued to go thru my mind all day and evening. Where do you want me to seek You, how do You want me to seek You. I'm willing, honest I am, I'm just in this desert and I am parched like I've never been parched before. I need water, the living water.
Psalm 23 used to get on my nerves, sorry Lord, because it was read at my dad's funeral and that is not what he wanted read. He told me what to have read and I got overruled. So, I had a thing about this Psalm for years. But, the Lord has changed my heart to this Psalm and now I think on it and just feel myself there.
The Lord is MY Sherperd, I shall NOT be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters, (This is my favorite part, the peace that comes over me when I think of lying in green pastures right next to the quiet waters and I just know there are huge 100 year old trees and I'm lying on a big ol comfy quilt.)
He restores my soul. (This is what I long for, my soul to be restored)
He guides me in paths of righteousness, for His name sake.
Even though I walk thru the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for YOUR rod and YOUR staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies,
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I WILL dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Its like He does the first part to prepare us for the second part. The valley of the shadow of death, that table in the presence of my enemies (the thoughts that come to mind on this one!) But with each step, He takes care us, His rod and staff comfort me. He anoints my head with oil after having to be at that table with my enemies. That is just the way He is. He doesn't promise happy happy happy but He does promise to be there.
Like that old cow laying in the field, I want to lay in the green pastures and drink of the living water so I can get past this parchment in the desert.
So, I would say the walk was good. I'm glad I went, maybe I will go for another tomorrow. Who knows who or what I might get to talk too!